Argh, why does my viewpoint differ so much from this morning right now? From a "let-everything-influence-my-decision" point of view, to a current "not-making-any-decisions-and-going-with-whatever" kind of view. Which is seriously not helping me in any way. I don't know what I'm doing, and what I'm going to do. With viewpoints differing from hour to hour, I don't know what the last hour spells anymore. Or should I just let my viewpoints keep differing, and perhaps understand the situation more?

Although my current viewpoint seems to guarantee some short-term benefits, but in the long-term aspect it's hardly predictable.

Take action or wait?

I have to choices displayed in front of my very eyes. I don't want to look at them, I want to turn around and look elsewhere.

Today, is the first day- and..I'm feeling somewhat empty.


After all I said, let me just talk something happy, huh? Today, I went back to school to handle some stupid home economics project. Euphoria level high, productive level low. Hasn't it either always been this way or in rare cases, the opposite? But I must say I learned some lame jokes today. And I see Cherie wants to be the next Obama, she says: "I will bring change to America." And Si Wei sort of said.."I don't have any change." Hilarious.

Today, I anticipate tomorrow. And tomorrow I anticipate the next. So on, so forth. Whatever lies beyond today, is a lil' later on. So, why worry about tomorrow? Although the day of the week I am anticipating most is Thursday. Two particular reasons why.


What exactly am I feeling now? Can someone tell me?

Sixty-five- sixty-five more I'll wait.