"It is not only for what we do that we are held responsible, but also for what we do not do."

I am disappointed at myself for the way I deal with certain things. I am disappointed at myself for the times I failed to take action. Honestly, when I take action and I must be held responsible for the outcome, I gladly accept it, and no regrets either. But when I don't take action, I regret, for not taking the chance, the chances that could make significant change to the future. Everything happens for a reason; this quote just cannot work out any more. It seems the more I keep using this quote, the more it seems as if I need not take action and am only relying on fate alone to shape my future. It is no more a quote, it has become an excuse to not take action.

The biggest fear is the fear of trying. I have decided to make a pact with myself. I shall slowly let action creep into me, and by doing that, I must first take action. One step at a time, and in the long run I would have gone far enough. And, I have decided, to take action today. If I don't take action starting with today, I am never going to get started. And I don't want this to end up as another empty promise to myself.

And by the first day of September, I want t o see a significant change in the way I do things. I do not want to see majority of the times, me backing away from the things that I could and should do. And, speaking up when I should, giving suggestions when I should, etc. I want to see the fullest of myself being displayed through actions and not only thoughts.

Yeah? One step at a time, and it goes a long long way. No matter what already, I must persevere this time. This is one important value I lack. Initially, I thought of giving myself only one month to work on this situation. But, since this is my first time trying to improve myself, to bring me onto a different level, in many aspects; I gave myself one and a half months to do so. And by September, if I still do not see significant change, I don't know what I'd do already.

I have failed in this aspect of my character, my life. And, also, many other aspects. One aspect that I really need is self-discipline. And in this endless pursuit to improve myself, I know it is impossible to be perfect, but I want the best out of myself. And, the best out of myself, I will bring the best out of others too. I don't know for who or what I am doing this, but I know it will be crucial. Somehow, this must not be an empty promise.

This will help me in a few of some important goals I have in mind. And, that shall be said in my next post!

For now, goodbye.