Hmm, am not blogging as active as before nowadays. You could say school has gotten real busy since the term begun. Murdering homework/projects seem to be on top of my priority list already! When has school become so frantic? Yeah, but if you look at the positive side of all these project work, you'd see that you get almost the whole day of every week to bond with your classmates! Even during individual work - you see our class doing art in synchronised movement minutes before art lesson - let alone group work.

Which brings me to say, I have not done the history quiz, cell model, prepare for character education test, nor done anything else this weekend. And tomorrow, even if it takes my life, I must complete the cell model and finish preparing for character education test! History quiz can wait, well, I suppose. And there's a history test this Thursday, oh, how great.

I don't know when EOYs are coming, but very soon, I guess. If you noticed, half the year has passed. It was fast, life becomes fast-paced, everything speeds up. And judging on that, I realise that I am so quickly going to be sec two. And not long after, sec three. And soon after, sec four, taking the O-Levels. Yeah, the thought scares me.

Oh, yes, I must have been drunk yesterday night. I seem to be on super high mode, and accompanying that sleepiness. Which gives you the drunk kinda feeling, I guess. That should be the feeling you get when you are really drunk. Except maybe the effects far more drastic. Drunk, and said so many words I perhaps shouldn't have. It seems as if I was really drunk.

Am I really asking for too much? Perhaps no, but now, I think, yes. A wish that will never come true. A so simple, yet so demanding wish.

I regret for actions I never took. And I regret for actions I am not taking. And I will regret for actions I do not take. It hurts. It hurts to know that if you have done that, so many things would have been evaded, and your life would have turned out all right. (Reminds me of literature test, wrote the same thing.)

Oh, and from this part onwards, it is an edit. Since I am so darn bored, and need to preoccupy myself with something before I start murdering people on the streets.

Yes, I have a tendency to go crazy nowadays. And I should really stop. And, about murdering people on the streets, it is a weird feeling to want to do that. Is that the reason for killing? To get this satisfaction? Shoot, I'm turning into a psychopath. Weird feeling. Have to stop. Seriously.

The whole world isn't online on MSN! I feel like resurrecting random people from MSN. I want those dull grey MSN icons to light up into those lively green ones. And people start flooding me with messages. But, really, don't flood me during the weekdays. I probably will be mugging for some test, or chasing some stupid deadline. Yeah? And, I have to reduce the usage of 'stupid' and be back to my old self.

Me. I. Myself. I like the old me better. I think I suck now. Okay, let's compare and contrast. Last time, I didn't use to be so darn impatient. And now I am. Last time, I didn't so frequently use the word 'darn' or 'stupid' so often. And now I do. (Or are things getting real darned nowadays?) Last time, I use to be more sociable, kinda. And now I am not really that. What has gotten into me? What have I become? And when I say 'last time', it was like only months ago! And, to focus on positive aspects. Last time, I use to talk so much in class. Now, I try to reduce small talk in class.

Crazy- as I post this, the whole world seemed to go offline. Oh, man, no one's blog seem to have a blog game or quiz thing that I can start on. This extreme case of boredom, and I so do not want to sleep. Because I am forced on the computer. Ain't that weird?

Random comment before ending- everyone has changed. Oh, another note: I think I am an idiot, thanks.

And from this point onwards, the edit has ended.

To a past that never existed, a today that isn't existing, and a future that will never exist.

Signed off,
Shawn.