It doesn't feel good to have someone not help you when you yourself helped that person once before. But, doesn't matter. I want to say things I'm not allowed to say, and no, not what you think. But, again, doesn't matter. Nothing actually matters any more, it's when you expect so much from something then you realise that nothing is there. So, why not just not expect anything. And maybe everything will turn out as miracles.

And, what I have right now is this thin line within me, and that is all I have. It could disappear at any moment, considering how thin it is. Or it could miraculously expand. But, that will be a bit impossible. Whichever it is, all I know is, I only have that much time. I'm not going to manipulate the line in anyway drastic. I'm going to let fate take over all these stuff because I am tired of doing so many things already.

On a happier note...

Today was actually quite a good day. Got back two test papers, which I am actually quite satisfied with. Literature and Biology. Quite ironic how it isn't that important to excel in academics in my context, and yet I do so but fail in other aspects of life that I want so much. So, yeah, pretty much cheered my day. From The Last Biology Lesson onwards to 7pm today was actually quite good. Which is also quite contradictory, in a sense. Which made me realise that I from the start never knew what I wanted, but never mind that.

Then we had the long-awaited photo shoot! Though it actually clashed with choir practice. At least we didn't arrive too late.

After that was "Balls Day"! Had fun. Although I didn't think softball was much of a success? I think only one or two games managed to maintain 'high' level. It was fun, despite not playing. Watching people play is always fun.

And on to some total randomness..

I am a little crazy on the bus. All the time. And I especially love the bus seat near the window. Because you can lean your head on the window. So, when you see me on the bus alone, it would be a little weird to see me sighing on the bus. And getting really lost in thoughts. I think I quite like bus rides. Perhaps one day I should just go on a bus which no one takes and take it all the way to the interchange. Someone accompany me!

That EOYs are coming. Scream. Panic. It starts on 30th September, which is like...I don't know how to study already. EOYs constitute...45% (?) of your overall marks. And I am sure I need to study a lot for my subjects especially history and DnT. Unfortunately, "procrastination is a universal flaw" and no one is able to "overcome the intense prowess of procrastination".

I wish...

Never mind.