I think this will be the last post before the EOYs begin (so it is rather long, pardon it)! The EOYs are exactly 1 week away from today. Practically, studying is in very very non-intensive mood. Which is bad. I have only managed to study history, and half of science. The other subjects are untouched. And it is decided that my D&T will fail because I didn't hand in the circuit. But I cannot afford to fail. I have decided that I must not get any C(s). Hopefully, I get panicky in the last and final week before the examinations and start studying in intensive mode, seriously. And I hope my resolution on not going online on MSN (unless for projects, homework, etc.) for the next 21 days do work out. I'd go online for awhile, maybe, because somehow it has become difficult to survive without it. EOYs. They come too fast, don't they? Seriously, schools should give a one week break to let the students study on their own. Or at least put all projects on hold.

After school was basically rushing D&T to hand in. I realised that my D&T could pass off as the worst D&T work piece ever in the entire history of the school. I am the new "Creator of Destruction". Realised that my entire project schedule is getting unpredictable by the day. I don't know how many projects I've not touched already. Music is Doomsday. Fortunately, "The Deadline Chasers" have decided to complete the Life Science Project by this Sunday. Which include finishing off the script, and doing out report. And my art is bad. I realise I've been owing teachers art since I-don't-know-when and thus my "Character Design" has a "18(-3)/25" and "Late!" on it. But Miss Ho is so kind to extend another art's deadline to Monday! Although I probably wouldn't be able to complete it by then!

I wish life has a 'ctrl+z' button. I wish life has an 'undo' button. This was randomly inspired by my destroyed D&T, which I supposedly did something terrible to it, and wanted to 'ctrl+z' it. But life really needs a 'ctrl+z' button. If only when we made a mistake, we could just undo it. And start all over again, until we're right. If only life had a 'ctrl+c' and 'ctrl+v' button so I can copy and paste the good parts of my life and put them in constant replay.

I wish I was back a few months. Or a few years. Where I didn't need to worry for a single thing, where I needn't need to face all this tension. I wish I understood less, yet I wish I understood more. I wish I needn't be involved in all these wars.

When I was Primary 6, nothing really mattered other than friendship. There wasn't anything else. I didn't remember a day where people fought over serious matters. I couldn't remember anything like what's happening now. And at home, I didn't remember anything happening like this year. Perhaps because we are now older, or maybe because we are working together in projects more than usual. When you get older, you understand more, but how I wish I knew less.
Right now I don't want to know anything. I don't know anything. I...want so many things. Nowadays, I like sleep time better. Firstly, because I don't get enough sleep. Secondly, you don't have to think about anything else. Thirdly, my dreams are better than reality.

I'm in no mood to type any more. I shall proceed with reading something, and perhaps feel better already.

Farewell, see you perhaps during/after the EOYs!